New way to cool off!

The boys have a new way to cool off lol. It is kind of hard to have a pool when you live in an apartment. I never thought about putting a small one on our patio! My mom gave me a pool for the boys. It's pretty small though and not a whole lot of room for both of them, but it will work until we can get them a little bit bigger one.
They played in it for an hour today lol. Allan played in it during the time Aaron napped too.


Rich and I have started talking about the idea of getting a house. Our lease here is not up until November and no way will we move in the winter (or in the middle of the school year for that matter) I'm thinking it will be at least another year or so before we would get serious about looking for another place. When we do move I want it to be somewhere that we can stay for many years. Allan has pretty much grown up in Hollybrook though lol. We've lived here since he was two years old. We did move out for just a couple months before but came right back here.
I just know that eventually the boys are going to need their own bedrooms. Right now it is fine for them to share but they are not going to be this young forever. In all honesty I don't think they would like being separated right now. They are really close. This is all just in the thinking stages anyway. Nothing is definite yet. There is no law saying that kids cannot share a bedroom. Plus I am happy here.
If we do move, I am going to be picky about it. It needs to be somewhere close enough to Allan's school that I can walk him there and back. I'm not taking him out of the school district he is in. I moved around to different Elementary schools growing up and it was not easy. Not easy to be the "new kid," not easy to make new friends and not easy to leave the friends behind you had before. People have their opinions about Taft but Allan really liked it there and as long as he is happy I'm not going to take him to a different school.
I guess I'm really just rambling. I tend to do that lol.

Medication...

I've never been the type of person to go to the doctor unless it's really bad (like ER worthy.) Of course I did when I was pregnant and I go to my yearly check ups with my OB but other than that, I don't.
I've had depression on and off since I was a teen. It is hereditary in my family. I don't really feel like I am in a depression, but I do know I have anxiety and that it is getting worse. I just feel nervous all the time. I get real shaky and panic over dumb things.
The past few months my mom keeps telling me I need to just go have a check up done. I need to talk to the doctor about my anxiety. No! I hate going to the doctor. The only reason I go to my yearly OB visit is because ovarian cancer runs in my family and I also have issues with my ovaries. (Sorry if TMI, but I'm not even sure if anyone reads my blog lol)

Anyway. So I go today and tell her about my anxiety. She wants me on Zoloft. She says it will treat anxiety and depression both because they tend to go hand in hand. Tonight is my first dose. UGH. Rich is on so much medicine and I never have had to take medicine every day. It's going to be hard to get used to. I just hope it helps me like it is supposed to.
It will be nice to not be so nervous all the time. It is hard to really even explain how I feel. It's like my body starts shaking but if you look at my hands, they are still. She also did routine blood work for other things and I have to go back in a month.
Oh well. I know I need to stay healthy and take better care of myself. I just hate medicine. I'm glad I have such a good doctor though who I am comfortable with. There is no real point to this blog post I guess. Just wanted to get my thoughts out there.

Our Summer So Far...

Our summer has had it's ups and downs but overall we have done a lot of fun things. 
It started after Allan's last day of preschool. It was really neat to compare the picture I took of him on his first day with the one I took of him on his last. It is amazing how much he has grown and learned this year. He blew them away at his kindergarten registration with how smart he is. He is reading very advanced, already at a reading level 4. By the end of kindergarten he is supposed to be at a 6. I am just really proud of him. He never stops surprising me.

 I also fixed up my flower garden. Allan and I did it one day while Rich and Aaron napped. I really liked the way it turned out. I need to get another picture of what it looks like now with all my new blooms. It looks really nice :)

The next big event of our summer was his 5th birthday party. He decided on a Mario theme. He had such a great party. Everything turned out really well and it was a lot of fun. It is hard to believe he is 5 years old. We ordered pizza from Little Caesars for everyone and of course there was cake and ice cream. 

 

We have also been super busy doing other things. We joined the summer reading club at the library. We go there at least twice a week, sometimes more. We have a season pass to the zoo and to COSI. I'm still waning to make it hiking at some point and to go to the beach and also to Marblehead. There are so many things we have still that we want to do. We are finally able to do these things because we got a new van. 

The school year is coming up fast though. There are "Back To School" signs and items all through the stores. It is going go go fast.  

It's going to be hard for Allan not being able to see Rich very much. He will be in school all day and Rich works 2nd shift now. 

His new job is so much better than Walmart though. He gets paid weekly the amount he was making every 2 weeks at Walmart. Plus he is going to be hired in and getting a good raise in September. That is going to really help us out. 

There is much more than I've talked about, but I'm not trying to make this a super long blog post. I'm going to try to blog more. I don't even know that anyone reads it, but it is nice to get all my thoughts out there. It is nice too to be able to go back and read things and see how far we have come over time.